Thursday, February 5, 2009

Boards

After a month of preparation, a lot of money spent, a very stressful weekend prior, and one huge emotional breakdown, I took boards. That was on Tuesday. Monday night was the emotional breakdown night, complete with statements of "I'm not going tomorrow. I'm not taking that test." I don't think my husband knew what to do with me (I didn't even know what to do with me!).

Anyway, I did go Monday morning to take the test. I was feeling much better. Either that or I had no tears left, I'm not sure which. I got finger-printed, got my pictures taken, they locked up my coat, purse, and even my cute scarf. I got finger printed again, informed of the test rules, finger printed once again, and was ushered into the room of doom.

I took the test. It was terrible. Almost all of my questions were on medications, and I didn't know any of them. I guessed. On all of them. Some were educated guesses, and some were "Oh, B sounds like a good answer." On boards, priority questions are the highest level you can get. I just about cried when I got my first priority question. I had prayed so hard that I wouldn't get all 265 questions (the maximum number you can get), so when I got passed75 (the minimum amount) I kinda panicked about having to take all 265. But the computer shut off at 78 questions. I raised my hand to let the test administrator know I was finished. I was ushered out, and finger printed twice more (just to make sure it was still me in there).

I had failed boards. I envisioned how I would tell everyone. I knew they'd all want to know. Honestly, I wasn't so much worried about the humiliation anymore, I was more worried about how long Methodist would hold my job. And honestly, I hardly cared how I did, I was just so relieved to be done with that test!

Anyway, I got my results just this morning, about 45 minutes ago. I started crying. And by a miracle, I passed. Seriously, all the glory has to go to God, because there is no way I would have passed unless it was His will. I am so thankful right now. I just keep repeating it over and over: "I passed. I can't believe I passed." And now I am officially Heidi Knapp RN BSN.

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

Congrats!!! Way to go!!!

Luke said...

Praise, Glory, and Honor to God! I love you so much baby. You're going to make an amazing nurse.

Jenny said...

YAY!!!!! I'm excited for you! :)

Anonymous said...

I am so happy that you passed! Especially after your Mom told me that you were positive that you failed. I don't think it was really YOU that took the test Monday AM as you have in your post. I'm pretty sure I saw YOU at a funeral on Monday, so maybe that's why you passed! (I know- all those days just ran together this past weekend.) Now you can begin buying your own Victoria's Secret stuff.
Love you-
Aunt Sandy G

Mary said...

Whoo hoo! That's awesome. Heidi! I'm so excited for you!!! Be glad that you get the results right away...when Greg took the CPA exam, he had to wait at least a month or so to find out, if I remember right.

Anonymous said...

woo hoo! rejoicing with you!
teresa c
ps have never met you, but i used to work with your mom :)

Travis said...
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Abby said...

Congrats Heidi- what a load off!

Jeremy & Nancy said...

Crying....crying lots and celebrating lots too! Only a fellow nurse can appreciate the emotional roller coaster highs and lows. We have been praying for Heidi's BIG test.....Yahoo! You are a hero today (and pretty much everyday). :) Congratulations! You are an amazing gal, may God use your talent to his glory!
love you!

Holly said...

i felt the same way. its really not right how they make you think you fail, but then you really passed. i guess its makes passing that much sweeter. congrats :)

wendi jo said...

Once again, Congratulations!!

Alyssa said...

Congrats!

the schros said...

HI! I'm late but was just thinking of you and wondered how they went!
78 questions and you passed!!! I am so so proud of you! Praise God.